Saturday, December 4, 2010

From My Journal of Poetry- "Foolish Me"

Foolish Me
Written 2005
By Janelle Wade
                        
How could I ever believe you were in love?
Physically hurting, emotionally driving me insane
I should have know better than to believe the lies
Never imagined I’d be sitting here in so much pain

Foolish me to trust someone so selfish
I know that you ran to her each night
You should know better than to think I would never find out
Whatever you do in the dark creeps out in the light

Foolish me to believe that you would be true
You got me thinking crazy thoughts
I’m laying here wishing you would never come back
Contemplating what is left for me to do

We haven’t touched in what seems like years
You lay next to me sleeping silently
Thoughts are filled with pain
With eyes filled with tears

Deep down I want to hold you close and never let go
Imagining you kissing her lips and making love to her
Now I’m thinking crazy wishing the worse for you

Foolish me to let you look at me and tell so many lies
The only reason you stay
Loving the magic between my thighs

It hurts to know love has gone
But I have to question if I ever loved you before
I was lying to myself because I didn’t have a choice
I didn’t believe I deserved more

I can’t sleep at night feeling all alone
It’s tearing my heart in little pieces
You leave only to return with an empty kiss
What has us at this point…longing for you is what I miss

To many things happened to soon and too fast
There was no way we were strong enough to last

Yeah, I thought you were the one
Foolish me to let my heart give in
With you there is no way I’ll ever win

There is no contract in love
Everyone is allowed to change
But I keep laying here trying to make you come home
In reality you left me all alone

Foolish me to trust someone so selfish
I know that you ran to her each night
You should know better than to think I would never find out
Whatever you do in the dark creeps out in the light

Finally I can give in and let her take my spot
One day I woke up and now I just can’t care
I didn’t know how foolish I was
So I’m leaving and “I love you” not

It’s not so hard to close the door
Watch as I walk away
On to someone that will love me more

I have to leave you alone
No more lies, no more coming in late
I’m tired of arguing I am done
Please don’t bother calling me on the phone

It’s turned off like my heart
The key you no longer have
Everything in me screamed you were wrong from the start

So I’m leaving and never looking back

With my bags packed and on my way
Sigh of relieve as I look forward to a brighter day

The only one I have now is myself and I
Foolish me because it took me this long to say goodbye
By Janelle Wade
                        
How could I ever believe you were in love?
Physically hurting, emotionally driving me insane
I should have know better than to believe the lies
Never imagined I’d be sitting here in so much pain

Foolish me to trust someone so selfish
I know that you ran to her each night
You should know better than to think I would never find out
Whatever you do in the dark creeps out in the light

Foolish me to believe that you would be true
You got me thinking crazy thoughts
I’m laying here wishing you would never come back
Contemplating what is left for me to do

We haven’t touched in what seems like years
You lay next to me sleeping silently
Thoughts are filled with pain
With eyes filled with tears

Deep down I want to hold you close and never let go
Imagining you kissing her lips and making love to her
Now I’m thinking crazy wishing the worse for you

Foolish me to let you look at me and tell so many lies
The only reason you stay
Loving the magic between my thighs

It hurts to know love has gone
But I have to question if I ever loved you before
I was lying to myself because I didn’t have a choice
I didn’t believe I deserved more

I can’t sleep at night feeling all alone
It’s tearing my heart in little pieces
You leave only to return with an empty kiss
What has us at this point…longing for you is what I miss

To many things happened to soon and too fast
There was no way we were strong enough to last

Yeah, I thought you were the one
Foolish me to let my heart give in
With you there is no way I’ll ever win

There is no contract in love
Everyone is allowed to change
But I keep laying here trying to make you come home
In reality you left me all alone

Foolish me to trust someone so selfish
I know that you ran to her each night
You should know better than to think I would never find out
Whatever you do in the dark creeps out in the light

Finally I can give in and let her take my spot
One day I woke up and now I just can’t care
I didn’t know how foolish I was
So I’m leaving and “I love you” not

It’s not so hard to close the door
Watch as I walk away
On to someone that will love me more

I have to leave you alone
No more lies, no more coming in late
I’m tired of arguing I am done
Please don’t bother calling me on the phone

It’s turned off like my heart
The key you no longer have
Everything in me screamed you were wrong from the start

So I’m leaving and never looking back

With my bags packed and on my way
Sigh of relieve as I look forward to a brighter day

The only one I have now is myself and I
Foolish me because it took me this long to say goodbye

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